"Right, right, and my only saving grace is that you were here first, of course."
He is doomed here forever, a cosmic joke from a God he swore to serve and ended up betraying, and loving someone who will leave, happy and healthy and fulfilled is just a way to twist the knife after years of watching people he could have cared about (or even did) be horribly abused or murdered as She finds a new kind of pain for him, the kind of pain reserved only for true and proper heretics.
None of this shows on his face.
"'Pop back home'? How long will you be gone, then?"
Hanna is not going to point out that Vincent's arrival predates his by less than a month, but that means he's closer, right? Right.
"I'd hope not long... time between here and there gets funky, right? Taylor said she was off the boat for a weekend and she was gone a couple hours here." He's got lots of plans, things he's been itching to do, but it'll be quick, he's sure.
"You think you could watch Simon and Garfunkel while I'm gone? They're super easy. Even if you forget to feed them it isn't like they'll starve."
Vincent had missed when he came in. And when he had, it'd seemed very much like he'd always been there. He's smart and capable but he can occasionally miss details, unfortunately.
This has caused problems before.
"Certainly. Just tell me what they need and it will be done."
Hanna is certainly not forgettable, glad that he had offered to help him hide a cabinet in the Chapel. It had been a shame when it burnt to the ground, but at the very least with the restoration effort it survived, not hidden any more.
"Just keep them company. They'd probably love going to work with you." It's easy, which is why Hanna had felt comfortable asking for them in the first place. He didn't always have the attention span for a pet, so one that can't die of starvation is a must.
This feels almost clinical though, standing here, talking with him. He shuffles forward, taking a hand to swing it gently with his, "do you want me to get you anything while I'm out? I've got a list going, and Ulla set me up with- well you should see my fucking backpack..." Lamont is going to be so confused when he shows up with a jansport full of diamonds.
"They honestly should be perfectly fine. You usually need a colony to start a large fire, and they're babies still. Good for keeping you company while I'm gone though." By the time they might be capable of being an actual problem, Hanna is hoping that he's got some work around for the fire hazards.
"You give me a list and I'll try my best. I was gonna head out this evening, so that gives you some time if you want to think about what you want?" If he can't find it he's sure Lamont can.
"I'll think about it, but I admit, it all sort of jumbles when I try," he says honestly, uncommonly frank with Hanna.
He doesn't want him to go. He doesn't want to give him reason to go. He's still going to go regardless and he knows he needs to for whatever reason but he's allowed to hate that.
Oh. Well? Yeah, he can see how that could happen...but he hadn't heard of people disappearing so soon after graduation on purpose. Either they dipped, or they handled their shit and came back, right?
His shoulders droop a little, frowning at their hands before looking up again, "I guess I didn't think about that part...I mean, yes it's possible, but I'm pretty sure if the Admiral shut the door behind me, I'm not going to forget you, I graduated! That's...that's something, right? It's important." It means he'd try to come back, and some people do, that asshole Lestat was proof of that, and probably some other people on board he didn't even know about.
He's free. Free of him especially. The urge to do something stupid is high enough it actually tempts him even though he is very much aware it is a stupid thing. Hurting people not to hurt them more is not a logic that actually works. It's a tempting selfishness, nothing more.
He breathes out and meets Hanna's eyes.
"I'm worrying over nothing. Or perhaps I'll miss you. Aren't you supposed to be pleased I'm more concerned about you coming back than what you'll get me while you're gone?"
"You better miss me," he huffs, even though he doesn't feel like it's the right mood to tease, but still.
"But I guess I'd rather you be thinking about something less depressing while I'm out. I have no intention of just disappearing on you. So...I'm not going to spend any energy thinking about it unless it happens."
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He is doomed here forever, a cosmic joke from a God he swore to serve and ended up betraying, and loving someone who will leave, happy and healthy and fulfilled is just a way to twist the knife after years of watching people he could have cared about (or even did) be horribly abused or murdered as She finds a new kind of pain for him, the kind of pain reserved only for true and proper heretics.
None of this shows on his face.
"'Pop back home'? How long will you be gone, then?"
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"I'd hope not long... time between here and there gets funky, right? Taylor said she was off the boat for a weekend and she was gone a couple hours here." He's got lots of plans, things he's been itching to do, but it'll be quick, he's sure.
"You think you could watch Simon and Garfunkel while I'm gone? They're super easy. Even if you forget to feed them it isn't like they'll starve."
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This has caused problems before.
"Certainly. Just tell me what they need and it will be done."
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"Just keep them company. They'd probably love going to work with you." It's easy, which is why Hanna had felt comfortable asking for them in the first place. He didn't always have the attention span for a pet, so one that can't die of starvation is a must.
This feels almost clinical though, standing here, talking with him. He shuffles forward, taking a hand to swing it gently with his, "do you want me to get you anything while I'm out? I've got a list going, and Ulla set me up with- well you should see my fucking backpack..." Lamont is going to be so confused when he shows up with a jansport full of diamonds.
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He's asking genuinely. But when Hanna takes his hand, he'll curl his fingers around his in turn.
"I might have a few supplies I could ask for. I don't suppose you'd be willing to pick up some esoteric items on my behalf?"
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"You give me a list and I'll try my best. I was gonna head out this evening, so that gives you some time if you want to think about what you want?" If he can't find it he's sure Lamont can.
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He doesn't want him to go. He doesn't want to give him reason to go. He's still going to go regardless and he knows he needs to for whatever reason but he's allowed to hate that.
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"Yeah? You wanna elaborate on that?"
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"Is it so unbelievable that I hate the fact you're going? I've read too many accounts of people suddenly unable to get back."
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His shoulders droop a little, frowning at their hands before looking up again, "I guess I didn't think about that part...I mean, yes it's possible, but I'm pretty sure if the Admiral shut the door behind me, I'm not going to forget you, I graduated! That's...that's something, right? It's important." It means he'd try to come back, and some people do, that asshole Lestat was proof of that, and probably some other people on board he didn't even know about.
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He's free. Free of him especially. The urge to do something stupid is high enough it actually tempts him even though he is very much aware it is a stupid thing. Hurting people not to hurt them more is not a logic that actually works. It's a tempting selfishness, nothing more.
He breathes out and meets Hanna's eyes.
"I'm worrying over nothing. Or perhaps I'll miss you. Aren't you supposed to be pleased I'm more concerned about you coming back than what you'll get me while you're gone?"
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"But I guess I'd rather you be thinking about something less depressing while I'm out. I have no intention of just disappearing on you. So...I'm not going to spend any energy thinking about it unless it happens."
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"Probably for the best. I'm just the sort to overplan, you know."